About Me, About Now....
In 2004, I was in school training to become an Ultrasound Tech….
I was top in My class ….
I was doing well
and was well on My way to becoming financially and emotionally independent ….
6 weeks from completion of the Echo course right before mid-terms in the middle of kicking ass….
I catch the worlds most vicious Cramp….
What does that have to do with anything?
Everything….
That Cramp changed the entire course of My Life….
After all being a menstruating woman, that could only mean one thing….
That time of the month….
Well day two of that supposedly time of the month The Cramps have gotten viciously worse and
no visit from aunt flow….
I’m on an HMO at the time so going to the hospital takes some approving and thats aggravating
especially when you are already in pain….
I go to the hospital
and after a very painful waiting room wait…
I see the Triage Nurse….
Pain….
Scale 1- 10….10, of course that’s the highest number on the chart
Temp: 103.5....Not good....
Late night becomes early morning....
I have to be at school at 6 that
evening ….
The Doctor comes over to My bed
and inform me that they were admitting Me….
I panic….
Why, For cramps?
What I thought was “Cramps” turned out to be A Pelvic Abscess….
My white blood cell count was extremely high and that meant INFECTION….
Definitely not good….
That’s when nearing 32 years old and no kids the last thing you want to hear
about is the possibility of needing a full blown hysterectomy….
Now I am faced with the very real fact that I will never have children of My Own….
This is all after giving birth at the age of 18 to a baby girl that did not survive 5 minutes
outside of Me….
And…. After a very emotional and marriage damaging unsuccessful Invitrofertilization (IVF)
attempt ,which left me scarred emotionally and physically….
Despite all consoling comments, remarks,
and looks
all by people WITH
Children….
That’s a bit much to handle
mentally , so off to therapy we go….
After about a year of therapy
I grew in more ways than I could have ever believed and I was open to new understandings of Myself that opened Me to New experiences
in My Life….
I meet the Man of My Dreams (we know that ending…. But)
In being with him I experience a happiness that satisfied My physical desires in a Man….
They say once you experience complete physical happiness you naturally open up to the Spiritual….
I testify that this is true, that is exactly what happened….
Sometime later in the mail, I receive a book concerning spirituality, but metaphysically….
New to Me but when a book of this type come in your name at your address and you know you have
not been, seen, or done anything that explains how this ended up here, you can pretty much count it as an act of Divine
Intervention and that is what I did....
I got on the internet and start researching and searching for My spiritual
path ….
The more I looked, the more My Soul came to life....
A life I didn’t know I wanted, yet alone needed….
That was when I knew it was time to find Me, the Me that did not need the approval of others
to pursue Her Souls Passion….
I began My Sensuous Soul Journey….
I believe in the existence of Universal Love....
I live for it and to express it ....
